Saticfaction Comes In Threes

    Alright my mind is messed! I can’t find happiness till the feelings stop!

 I’m getting way to much attention lately from everyone, my boss, his son, a guy that gets his hair cut, my neighbor, a friend that I’ve known for a few months, some good  energy others not so much. it’s crazy and I’m not even the ones that sees it….but I notice now!

 I have rules you know, to control my mind…without order my thoughts get odd and unsafe…..it’s not easy to control your mind, it’s easy to control the brain but the mind…that’s just something else..I focus on it every day to avoid loosing control.

 So now I’ve made up my mind, I cannot be happy with another human being if my mind is fixed on one and my heart is fixed on another. There’s no room for anyone else….perhaps one day in the future …although I choose not to predict my future anymore…until I am able to let go I am not letting anyone in….I wont take the risk anymore, I’m not hurt but I’ve learned that maybe it’s not for me.

 I am okay with that of course, I found very few…make that one person that understood me completely at one point in my life and that was great, so of course that’s not going to upset me now, I made my decision and it’s to give me time, a chance….and maybe my brain, my heart and my mind can agree with one another once again.