If I go, Then I am taking the whole world with me!

I know I know. I havent wrote in forever. Nothing has been there. Not at all…but things on the outside have been very well…easy way of saying it..is fucked up. Its a constant somehow every day. Whether it be with my mom, over petty ass shit. Or trying to keep up with patience of life itself. I feel like I am failing and falling apart. My mind is numb. Maybe that is why I cant write anything anymore. I am always constantly being drained of everything. Although I the only thing I cant complain about is my woman. I worry about her. She has so much stuff going on sadly. I try so hard to make everything better, but i feel impotent at times. Like nothing i say or do will make a difference. She has definitly made a deep impact on me. She bought me my GT. She got my Avenger. We are both happy in some way I guess. We jut cant be together yet which is sad. I am looking forward to all of this crap to be over and done with. ready to have everything set in stone and move on ahead with life. Leave the past with a tombstone by the side of the road. Since I have got the car, I have been dying to take a ride to the mountains. I think we may do that next Friday. I may even keep my son out ofschool and take him with me. And yes my woman as well. it should be interesting fun trip.

   Oh I am sure you are wondering what the title is about since there really is no relevance to this entry. lol. You are still alive arent you?? Wel so am I !!   lol  Blessed be!

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