Intermission 2

I keep thinking of things I wish I’d added to various entries, but forgot or just didn’’t think of it until some of you had already read them.

For one thing, some of you asked about Connor.  I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t develop feelings for him.  We even spoke on the phone once or twice.  The money situation with Ben had gotten so bad, Connor even offered to lend me money.  I told him he was crazy, but he said he trusted me.  It was close to tax refund time, and I was struggling to make the rent, so I accepted his offer and paid him back when I got my tax refund.  Ben knew where I’d gotten the money, and had no problem with me taking money from a man he didn’t know.  That was another straw that lead to the collapse of our relationship.  Beyond that, Connor lived in Canada, and frankly, when Ben and I broke up and I was “available” he faded into the shadows.

Another thing that I’ll go into detail on later in my storytelling: I had some pretty serious medical issues back in December.  My doctors say my recovery is pretty close to miraculous, but I’m left with some residual damage.  One of those things is my memory.  So after I’ve published some of these things, I’ve realized that I’ve told some of it out of order.   For example, I struggled with the stuff about my mother for quite a while before Ben and I actually broke up.    That matters because around the time that Ben and I broke up, I moved into a small apartment in the back of my parents’ house.  By then, my relationship with my mom had gotten to a point in which she and I could begin communicating about what I was going through.  I’ll go into more detail in coming entries.

While I don’t think it’s related to the medical issues to which I referred, I am having some intestinal issues that have me bedridden.  I’m going to the doctor tomorrow.  Hopefully it’s nothing.  Keep your fingers crossed.  If I don’t write for a few days, that’ll be why.

I appreciate you, My Readers, and your comments.  This will all be a book one day.  And I’ll be thanking the OD community in the credits.  <3