i have discovered i am not interesting

I find things interesting. i have even put some of them here on OD, but having flicked through many, i don’t find myself interesting.

I miss a lot of things in life.

My best friend, who died over 7 years ago. 

My girlfriend, who lives over 5 hours away.

My friends, who i am as guilty of not contacting as they are me.

The people who made me a better thinker, writer, kisser, speaker, lover, singer, actor, teacher…

I miss being spontaneous, and i have lost the ability.

I miss writing on here, when i’m on here. And i still miss the sensation i got when i was writing music. I still have no new songs bursting to come out. I worry this is a reflection on my soul or something melodramatic. I fear it’s simply a reflection of my very average musical ability.

Tell me how and i’ll add one of my songs on here. Not me singing, that would be too self-indulgent and wanky. i mean one from my musical, sung much more appropriately by someone else.