A little more about me.
1. I have two older siblings (8 and 9 years older, respectively), and a younger half-sister (8 years younger). My mom and dad divorced when I was 18 months old. She remarried to a man 10 years younger and very controlling and overbearing. He could not control my brothers, so he played his mind games with me. Because my personality is more compliant than my other siblings, it didn’t take long for him to get inside my head. He’s been dead for 20 years and he is still inside my head, reminding me how stupid I am.
2. When I was 12, I was molested by a 13 year old boy on three separate occasions. He forced me into a storage room at school and forced me to perform oral sex on him and told me that he would beat me to a bloody pulp if I ever told anyone. I was already dealing with self-worth issues before this happened, making matters much worse. I told absolutely no one for almost 30 years.
I am sorry that you have to deal with these issues. Someone needs to let you know that it was never your fault and that it does not define who you are. Your wife should be one of those people, and your mother if she is still in your life. You are important. You are needed. You did not deserve those things that happened.
@ladyhawk_1 If I had been a stronger person within, none of those things would’ve happened.
@skd0617 That is not true. You were a child and the perpetrators were in the wrong. You did nothing wrong. I hope you will come to understand and believe this.
@ladyhawk_1 I thought I had buried all those things when I became an adult. I was not prepared for all those emotions to rear their ugly heads.
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