fly away

so as i write this i am missing a dance audition…for steve… whom i’ve been loyal to and in a bunch of his pieces since sophmore year…

but i have no motivation to go.

that internal fire that drives me to be creative and dance is gone.. although ironically i’m doing better in my dance classes… but those are technique based.. not creative based….

and i still want to choreograph a large piece.. but i cant find it…. i cant find a piece that will work for me and do what i want..

at least i’m still in one of his pre-casted pieces.. and its fun too. but i have no desire to do a second one…

as it is, i have no idea if the other pieces i’ve promised myself to are going to happen or not… probably not.  so, steve’s big piece and prolly the solo (once i decide on it) is all that it will be…. kinda depressing for a senior year.

but that’d about par for me and my millikin oh so not glorious senior year.