yeah.

i thought i’d be good and update… since ive been a lazy bum about that recently.

Things are going fine.

I’m realizing more and more how much of a lone wolf i am…. i mean, i have a bunch of people I can smile and talk with… but no attachments at the hip.

dance concert has been fine… its been really interesting trying to get the right emotions out for each number…. my solo only has worked really well on final dress… mostly cause of who is in the audience…. last night it sucked, but tonight it was ‘okay’ …. granted these are all in my opinion…

i think i’m just about done with my dance carreer… at least the on stage part… i just don’t care for it as much anymore… I had more butterflies for my spider dancers than i had for my solo. oh well.

and now we shift gears to my regular ramblings about guys….

its been an interesting weekend… like i said… thursday night i had some motivation, last night i didn’t, but after the concert somebody came up to me in the lobby and was impressed and all that… and i decided i could tap that if i wanted… of course there was someone else who was also at the 1009 party that night who i contemplated…. however, somehow i knew it weasn’t gonna work, although we did talk for awhile, which is something we hadn’t done in a long time…. or maybe ever? it’s a wierd one tho…

… and i did make out with a gay guy, so …..

… its been awhile since ive done that….

🙂

but really, i think i’m like the atari’s… “Giving up on love”… good song. its wierd… ive reached this completely ‘don’t care’ section of my life… very little emotion to anything… makes it difficult to want to go party and stuff.

anyways, i think i’m gonna go party and stuff…