So Long Ago, Just Let It Go

Funny how time went by so fast.  I still remember that day when he told me he will never like someone like me because he loves me even though I have all the traits he dislikes in a girl.  And even he confessed his love to me, we never become "US".  We have never exchanged "i love you’s" but instead we said goodbye.  Two years without communication… and when I finally had his number again, he was already in a relationship, while I was still hoping that one day we’ll call each other "mine".

We lost contact again because he just kept on ignoring me, until I got tired of letting him know my existence.  Again, another four years have passed when I found him in facebook.  I again got his number and exchanged messages.  I even call him sometimes.  He was the one I found comfort when I was broken.  Yes, that time, I was brokenhearted from a failed relationship… while he was in a relationship for more than two years.

From then on, he remained to be my friend.  He was there for me when I need someone to make me laugh.  He has this kind of humor which I can’t resist.  I can’t help myself from smiling even though we’re just talking on the phone and exchanging messages.  But one day, when I was so down and needed he someone to cheer me up, he refused to help me.  Truth is, for all those years, we have only met each other once.  So I was really hoping we’ll meet again.

And when I asked him if we could meet.  He stopped on answering my calls and replying on my texts.  And after a week, he just sent me this message telling me that he doesn’t want to meet me.  And the reason is that, he still hadn’t forgotten that time when I turned him down over his friend. :'(  

I was young back then and had made more immature decisions.  But wasn’t I right when I chose not to end the friendship cause I was afraid that I would loose him if ever our relationship would not end well?  He was my best friend!  If I have only known that I would lose him in whatever decision I made… I should have chose him instead of his friend.  Oh, well… that’s life.  I just stick on believing that we’re just not meant to be.

But I’m glad now that he’s not ignoring me anymore.  I just wish he had moved on with I did since it was so long ago.