What is important?

I’m feeling weak and I am. I don’t know anything. In the horison there
seems to be an infinity. Where does it lead to? The black sky and the
clouds don’t let even a spark from any star today. It rains. My soul
breaks apart. What is the meaning of my life I am asking? Love? Does it
even exist? I doubt it does. I doubt every word of what a friend is
saing. It seems to be so clear. It seems to be so true. It probably
isn’t. There’s no paradise on earth. Not for me. Not for the soul that
keeps on searching for the truth. Everyone can find answers. The
reality is that there are more then one answer to every question. I’m
tired of my spirit and my goals. Please help me God!!!