I hate school

Today school starts. I hate it! Ever seen a scene where people don’t like each other just because they are in a different social group. I can give you an example of that. People around me know that I don’t swear but most of the people here do. One of my classmates said to me once that I was the only “item” in this school that doesn’t swear. The conversation was in Bulgarian so I have to explain the exact meaning of the word “item”. If you go to a store and buy something you buy an item, a copy of a magazine for example. He was trying to say that in order to fit in I have to start swearing again. I should have replayed to him that I wasn’t an “item”. They don’t like you if you’re good. They like you if you’re cool. Now “cool” in this situation has a meaning that’s not listed in a dictionary. It sais that you are not yourself and you can never be. A rule. You’re not able to make choices. You can understand why I don’t swear. It’s not because of my parents or anyone else that I know. I do it for myself. The heck I’ve done crazy things that my parents don’t like and I’m still doing them. You’ll understand what I meal in a later entry. The only thing that keeps me living today is God. I’m a Christian. Alot of people don’t understand that. They don’t even try. I can’t explain many things. I’m not Einstein. But he, Einstein, believed too. I feel kind of bad because I stopped reading the bible for a while. I have to start again. I have to know everything there is to learn from it. It’s a part of what it keeps me going. Last thing for now: I will like those who leave notes to correct my typing technique. It’s important for me to know where am I wrong in spelling or punctuation. Thanks in advance. Maybe I’ll add more of the day later.

It’s 6:54 PM now. I got back from school. Well, it was stupid as usual. I hate going tomorrow and I know skipping is not an option. Right now I’m listening to HI FI Mike – Stereo’s Flava (Jamie Lewis Main Mix). Disco mixed with jazz. A very nice thing for my nerves. I love pease and quiet and I hate to hear shouting and screaming about useless stuff. There are people in my class that wanna attract attention to themselves and they do it by making their personal lives a public domain. Maybe I should remain the title of this entry. Yes. I will. That’s more like it. I’ve renamed it from “School starts today” to “I hate school”.