what the what?

most girls don’t think of their first time with fond memories.

most girls say the guy was wrong , or the timing, or it hurt or didn’t feel good.

my first time didn’t hurt at all. it felt so right.

it was innocent and loving and full of longing and need.

then i remember he had to work.

but i remember later going to pick up condoms with him…and being so nervous that someone i knew would see me buying condoms..

and then he poked fun at me and i said "shut up. lets go home and have sex".

and we laughed…

we laughed a lot you know…

you said once i was like air to you.. but you are breathing fine..

iiiiiiiii can’t say i’m okay…

iii can’t say the zoloft is quite working like i hoped..

iiiiiii can’t say anything for sure..

except..

tthere is a part of me that hardcore misses you.

but

there is a bigger part that doesn’t miss the lies…

you were right

i am too good for you.

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on another note, i think i have sexual problems..

i have nympho tendencies..

blurg.

liz lemon is my idol