My Lady Love…

My lady love, I need ya oh how I need you…..

You treat me like you doo…..

Take my gray skies and make em blue….

Now baby!  Baby!…

She had an EKG this morning.  The nurses fell in love with her.  She kept signing I love you to them, then they would ask her to show them more.  She knows 90 now.  The sign for smart is her favorite.  Then dancing then cook.  She’s finally stuck her fingers up when she signs mommy and daddy.  Anyway, lady had an EKG this morning.

I know it’s mostly me…I’ve been a bit phobic about her since she came my way finally.  Go figure!  When I was pregnant, a girl asked me what my biggest fear was about giving birth, I said dying of course.  Waiting so long for her then dying and never getting to meet her body to body.  Instead it would have to be soul to lady. 

I walked to the bank once and I was so cute pregnant.  I had this sudden fear that I was going to be kidnapped so they could take lady before I could meet her. 

So I make it to birth and don’t die…but then there’s SIDS.  She was born with a hole in her heart, but she closed it on her own 17 days later.  I told my little baby that was her only job right now, to please close that hole in your heart.  Everytime I would take her to a doctor for checkups, I’d have to remind him to check her heart because he’d forget she was born with a hole in her heart.  He’d always say it was fine. 

My sister is younger than me and her heart would beat so fast it couldn’t stop.  She had a surgeory and she’s young. 

I listen my my girl’s heart alot, and she listens to mine.  I think her’s beats too fast.  I think something is wrong with her heart and it makes me think all the fears I’ve had since she’s graced me.  Of course I took her to the doctor and the lady that was training with him saw us first.  She’s such a nice lady.  We bonded like I can when I know I’ll not see them again and told her I lost a lady before.  She actually came over and held my hand so I gave her some energy to see what she would do.  She tightened her grip, lovely sign.  So I told her that it was easy for me to heal from.  I know it was so important to God that I have my lady that he sent her to me twice.  The first time she just didn’t have the right body for her soul.

Anyway, her doctor comes in and says so you are worried about her heart.  Again.  He listens to her heart and says that it is beating fast.  He said that I could have an EKG but to be informed that it was for HER, NOT ME.  I wanted to say piss off,  but lady was listening.  I knew he thought I was being silly, but he shouldn’t have acted like that. 

So she got her EKG, and everyone fell in love as I said previously.  She lays real still and all of the stickers start playing on the screen.  I knew she legally couldn’t tell me anything what the test said, but she knew.  So I sat on the bed with lady and looked in the mirror at her face.  Now…she could be a fellow poker player…but I didnt’ see any concern.  I’ll know by Wednesday and will probably type then.

////EDIT:  The EKG was fine