Palm per Soul

When I was on my honeymoon…the one that counted anyway, Dan and I went broke.  We spent all of our money and got stranded in Tennessee.  We had the best best time, just had too much fun and didn’t think of how to get home!  So there we were sitting in this bar wondering what we were going to do.  Dan told me I should read palms all the way home.  I told him there were 3 women and two men I could read dead on, and I should read the owner’s palm first.  I took a look at her, and so we approached.  She was a fancy older woman, full makeup and big brown hair.  Long red fingernails and deep lines in her face.  She had the kind of smile that if you were looking at a picture of it, and you covered the mouth, the eyes would profoundly lack that smile.

I approached her and said, "Excuse me mam, may I hold your hand?"  They always say yes when I offer my hand.  I just sat by her and held her hand.  I can put energy into people, and I want to see if they can tell.  I don’t say a word, the next move is her’s.  She starts to only look at my face, and I see that smile touch her eyes.  I ask her if I may read her palm?  She said of course.  Her life had been touched with so much loss.  I knew if I started there, she would tell me where I needed to be.  I told her she had lost a child, perhaps several.  Her eyes then opened all the way up and directed me to her soul.  I noticed to my left there was a couple reacting openly to what I was telling her.  People were gathering.  I helped her, she thanked me, I’ll never forget that conversation and she bought me a beer and handed me $20.00. 

I didn’t get a chance to hand it to Dan before that couple approached me.  Her husband kept telling her she didn’t have to do this, that maybe it was too soon.  She was allready tearing up and said no, she wants to do it.  How much is it the husband asks?  It’s what you feel it’s worth.  Can I hold your hand? 

I’ve never had a best girl friend, but on the movies and television shows, the look the two women have when they are confiding and bonding, that’s the look this girl had.  I told her she had left part of herself somewhere else.  She gives this energy back.  I told her she gave a baby up for adoption and the husband says it has to stop here.  The woman says no no, I can handle it, please tell me, go on!  I told her she came into this life with a broken family.  Her father perhaps was an alcoholic and she grew up feeling no love.  That when she went into high school, she got into trouble and caused herself much chaos.  Her husband kept interrupting, and I said sir, if you can help her through the next 5 minutes, she’ll remember it the rest of her life.  He sat and shut up!

I told this girl that she was smarter than she knew back then.  I told her there were times in her life where she wanted to die and probably tried.  But the wiser woman was present even in those weakest of times.  That wiser woman knew that these circumstances were temporary.  That in 5 years time, she could be completely different circumstances.  She wouldn’t be living at home anymore, and she would start her very own story.  I told her that when she got pregnant, she knew she was on the same road as her mother was.  She knew back then that babies deserved better than what she had.  The knowledge she had to save her own life several times, was the same knowledge that saved her own babies life.  That now she had the responsibility to create a childhood for her future children that she deserved growing up.  I told her that’s how she could truly heal. 

We had such a crowd, and the line was forming.  When the husband asked her how much do you want to give her, how much do we have? 

I needed a break, I was up to play pool.  I had a crowd!  I have this feeling that everything I am is perfection!  I love my hair, I love my brain, I love my honeymoon and my man and I am one damn fine palm reader!  I start beating this guy, and I beat the next, and the next, and I wouldn’t have stopped winning.  I won money on two of those pool games.  And a beer.  Dan get’s along with everyone everywhere, I love that about him.  He was having a blast.  So, I quit playing pool, I have more palms.  It was a spectacular night.  Everyone loved us and Dan and I talked about buying a house here and never go back.  With what I was making, we could have afforded a down payment!

Everyone in the world should have a night like that.