WHERE TO BEGIN….

 ok so there’s a lot of drama going on in the world of me right now….ok wow could i sound anymore conceited?… well anyways here’s the story cuz u kinda need the backgound to understand the connection and amout of drama.

 So this summer my ex-best friend Ashley’s sister Mandi and her good friend Tara became friends with a guy named JC (his mom lived a couple houses down from Tara). Mandi and Tara both started to crush on him but Mandi was more forward about it and tried to start something with him. Well that kinda pissed Tara off cuz Mandi knew about her feelings. Then, on 4th of July, Mandi invites JC and his sister Ashleigh over to her gma’s house to hang with her and Tara and Ashley. Mandi tells Ashley (her sis) that she really likes JC, but the night Ashley met him they went streaking (JC likes to be naked). Well Mandi finds out from JC’s sister but  and Ashley deny that it happened.

Well, a little while after that we all decide to hang out and i get to meet him. We went swimming (well they did me and tyler (ashley’s ex) left to go see a concert then i came back) and then went back to the park in between mine and Tara’s houses. Me, JC, and Ashley were chillin and gettin to know each other. I instantly got along with him, he was funny, hot as hell (not that it matters all that much but he was nice to look at so it didnt hurt), and just fun to be around. Well he started talking about streaking again, and me being myself, told him i wouldn’t mind seeing him naked but that i wasn’t streaking since it was more of a spectator sport. So, he and Ashley decide to do it and right as they are undressing Mandi starts to walk toward us across the park. LOL JC and Ashley grab they’re clothes and run behind a tree. Mandi is pissed cuz she already didnt trust Ashley and JC together, and she asked where they were. So i told her that they were around some where i wasnt sure. Then JC, like a dumbass, goes "OOOO ASHLEY" just as a joke (he didnt know mandi liked him). Well Mandi freaks out and storms off. JC and Ashley came back laughing and i was just shaking my head at them. Well then JC had to go home so i gave Mandi and Ashley a ride home, The entire time Mandi was yelling at Ashley about how she liked him and how could her own sister do that..ect. So once we dropped Mandi off we called JC and decided to sneak him out of his house…stupid idea. We get him out and his sister noticed and called Mandi. Well anyways we left and hung out for a while, just me, him and Ash until Mandi called and started screaming at Ash about the fact that she thought she was being a slut blah blah blah…so we took JC back and there was a huge blow up between the sisters.

Later on that week JC calls Ash and asks what she’s doin the next day but Ash had to work. Well he talked to me and told me he was coming over for a while since Ash was gonna be a work so i said ok. He came over and we had a freakin awesome time. We just talked, he helped me w/dishes and we got in to a carrot war (ask me later lol). Well Ash came over cuz she got off work early and hung out with us the rest of the day. The next week we both sneak out and go see JC in St. Joe (his dad’s) we were out there for hours. Me and JC cracked up the entire time, like we’d known each other a lot longer. Well then the next night i couldnt sneak out cuz i was havin people over at my house (Ash and her ex) but she left early to go "home" which was really out to see JC. She was out there till 2 am. So they ended up hooking up (making out and what not, nothing too big) and JC told his sister who then told Mandi and Tara. They were PISSED. The next day they decide to go to a movie but leave an hour and a half before it starts. Well more shit happened between them and by that point Ashley was hoping she’d found more than just a hook up. It ended up that she called him out and asked what they were…he said friends with benefits and she got real mad. She came over to my house (o they both ditched me that day too) to tell me what happened and i tried to be there for her but i honestly thought, and told her, that she had no right foolin around with the guy he sis liked. Mandi finds out about all of this and flips out. But they both denied it which made it that much worse. So Mandi and Tara hate both of them. JC ended up telling them the truth and they all became cool again but Ash never really did until much later.

Ash and JC stop talking all together. Well one night me, Mandi, and Tara go to see him and we have a freakin awesome time! We end up going out there all the time, we all became really close. Ash got mad at me for still being friends with him but she got over it. Me and JC always had a good time and we were always crackin up about somethin. Then I begin to develop feelings for him, like an idiot. I dont really say anything about it tho to anyone other than my best friend Kristie. But one night we took a friend of ours (sam) out to see him with us, which was fun. But on the way we met a guy named Jack. Sam’s bf’s co-worker and Ashley’s new interest. Me and Ash had pretty much stopped talkin by that point after being inseparable for close to 8 years. Well later that night Jack calls me, Mandi, , and BeccaTara wanting us to go hang with him. He and I ended up hooking up that night. I felt so bad for it…

One night i decided to go out there with a friend of mine named Lucy. I’d told her how much i liked him and she thought it was cute and all. So we get out there and she starts to hit on him like crazy! They ended up joking about giving head and she told him since he’d never sxperienced it she would demonstrate…I WAS PISSED! So she gets in the back seat and unzips his pants and feels on him then laughs and says she wont do it if im in the car, so i was told to get out..of my own car so that she can give him head. I told them to get the fuck out and so they went to the park, I told her not to play with him cuz he was convinced she was gonna do and she informed me that i needed to grow up and stop being such a little kid. She didnt end up doing it a basically teased him to a painful level. I didnt talk to either of them for a while.

JC and i were better after a day cuz its impossible for me to stay mad at the boy. Well, finally we hook up. It had been coming since the first night i met him and it was frickin great! Well i was crazy about him and we’d become best friends. So naturally i wanted Kristie to meet him, the 2 most important people in my life needed to meet. So we all hung out and guess what happened?? Take a wild guess….SHE FALLS FOR HIM!!! And she’s a million times prettier than me so he begins to like her back. For 2 months i was hearing about this from both of them. My 2 best friends, unfortunately i’d fallen in love with one of them (JC u sickos lol). Kris and i began fighting constantly. I felt she had no place in any of it and she felt i had no say in what she did. It was really bad, we never faught, ever, until JC. I tried to act like it didnt matter but it hurt worse than anything i’ve ever experienced. She ended up telling me she wouldnt date him but i never believed her. after a lot more drama (way too much to write down) we go out to hang with JC and his best friend Jack…..Ashley’s ex and my hook up. Well he had a sail boat and we watched as JC and Kris disappeared into it. I was LIVID!! So i started making out wit

h Jack, it was stupid i know. On the way home i told her that if she wa going to date JC then do it and get it over with, i had nothing more to say about it, i didnt want that to ruin our friendship. I went through weeks of him telling me how much he liked her and wanted to get with her. She did something and she almost lost him. Well when he thought he was going to have to give up on her he asked if i could go see him and he cried. Im the only girl he’s ever cried in front of.

They end up dating like everyone knew they would. However, we still hung out by ourselves, which bothered Kris, I didnt care, she knew how close we were before she got in to it and she knew it wouldnt change. Im sure it should have changed but we did stop hooking up while they dated. But the thing was, it never fully hit me that they were dating. I mean i couldnt wrap my mind around the fact that i was 2nd in line to her. I hated it and i resented the hell out of her for it. The only thing was, i want 2nd in line, she was, even when they were dating. And she was upset by it, and rightfully so. I was his 1st priority no matter what and she hated it. And i hated the fact she had the one thing i wanted…the title.  She freaked out at me one night saying that she knew i liked him and she was sure he felt the same about me so y the hell was she mixed up in ti. Well after a week he broke up with her. He called me before it happened and talked to me about it for 1/2 an hour, then called her and ended it with no explination and hasnt talked to her since.

Kris and i talked a little while after the break up and decided to be completely honest about our feelings and she told me she thought i loved him….i did and i told her the truth. I think it hurt her pretty bad, i felt like shit for it. Then she told me that she’d been on the verge of loving him too. I dont know why but that seriously crushed me. Next to Kristie im nothing special.

But JC and i have still stayed like we always were, closer than normal. He and i are almost inseparable….Last night we got together for the 1st time in a long time. It was so freakin hot! We were out of control, it was one of the best nights of my life. I was over at Kris’s today and she asked me if we hooked up and i told her the truth. She was kinda upset because she feels like im getting with her ex, when i feel like im really doing nothing wrong. He and I were close before her, she knew we were like that and she knew we were going to stay like that and she acknowleged that before they dated. So now im feeling bad about it when i feel like i shouldnt have to feel anything like that.

I dont know, i want to be done with this, im tired of the drama. I just want to be with some one who wants to be with me and is not afraid to go for it. Im the kind of person who hates games and wants a real relationship, not high school inexperience (not meaning that sexually). I love love and i love having that kind of closeness and comfort with some one. Im sick of being with out it and im ready to find it damn it lol!