If You Lived Here, I’d Ignore You

2:57 am
Listening to: "Right Where It Belongs" by Nine Inch Nails 

Thinking about things a lot today. A quote that someone posted about how much we dislike others leads us to realizing things about ourselves sort of got the whole thing going.

I had a realization that I feel closer to people when I’m not a part of their every day life. A good example of this is my brother. I think he’s the person I feel the closest to. I can’t tell him everything, but we seem to be mentally connected so much of the time. We’ve seen each other through the worst shit. Yet, if he still lived in town, I may speak to him to him less.. for some reason.

Maybe it’s a thing that is all about comfort for me. It’s easy to comfortably hold people at arm’s length (metaphorically speaking) when they’re miles & miles away. It also helps that you don’t get mixed up in the business of "what should we do?" & can just focus on the conversation. It was just a small realization I had. Sort of stupid, isn’t it?

Some of the people I love the most, i may never even see.

My eyes are dry & itchy from lack of sleep.  Seems I’m finally starting to get tired. Mostly waiting for a few games on Steam to finish downloading before I call it a night. However, if the time remaining on the downloads keeps going up like it has been, I’ll just finish them up the next time I log in.

Played Killing Floor w/ Jon for a while. Had a lot of fun. He kept jumping around in the game, bouncing off things. It was humorous, since he’s sort of like that in real life.  He always amuses me… I find the smallest reasons to like people, I swear.

I don’t want to talk about Thanksgiving so let’s just part ways w/that topic here & now. The kick off to the official start to the season has come. Yay. I hate the "holidays". Lack the energy for any sort of elaboration on that statement. I’m sure I’ve ranted on about it in here before. Jesus, after over 11 years, what haven’t I ranted about in here?

Peace.