I love her.

Monday, 5:35 am
Listening to: "The Royal We" by The Silversun Pickups

I don’t seem able to sleep tonight, or just plain don’t want to. I’ve grown a little too accustomed to sleeping very few hours a night. I think I got more sleep in college on a nightly basis than I have been lately. Though, when I stayed up all night on Friday, I slept 13 hours on Saturday.

I just texted my boss to notify her that she only has one closer (besides me) scheduled for tomorrow night. Crazy, she’s hardly even been in the store so far this month. Things always run shittier there when she’s not around.

My mom’s in town, been here for nearly a week now. I have to say, it’s been nice seeing her. I think it’s been around 3 months since I saw her last. I froze my ass standing out in the cold helping her change the oil on my car, my sister’s car, & her car. We were out there for well over an hour. At one point I had to come in b/c my hands were burning, red, & swollen. My eyes were tearing up through most of it. I swear the wind chill must have been -10 at least.

Anyway, we went out to lunch after my shift on Thursday. We actually had a good time. Good conversation & everything. She & I were laughing b/c one of the bussers that worked there kept hitting on me. Not in a creepy way, more of in a charming way. I thought it was amusing. He wasn’t bad looking either. Anyway, lol. I’m glad that my mother seems to have an understanding of me finally. I think she can sense that I am always holding her at arms length; that I’m one psychotic episode away from writing her off for good. She certainly sees me as more of an adult (I think, as much as she can) now than she had before we stopped speaking for 3 years. I love her, though. I really do.

I got to hear Lee’s voice tonight. It was nice. I missed hearing his voice. I love how it always sounds like he’s smiling whenever he’s talking.

Babysat my neighbor’s kid for 11 hours on Friday (was my day off). It was a complete nightmare. I don’t feel like going into the whole thing. It just sucked, & I’ll leave it at that.

It’s snowing outside now. It’s so bright & beautiful. If it weren’t for the winters being so damn cold here, if it never dropped below 0 that is, I’d love winter. While it’s still warm, I’m hoping there will be enough snow for sledding. I need to, somehow, teach myself how to snowboard. I’ve always wanted to learn.

Peace.