Hurricane

11:37pm
Listening to: 30 Seconds to Mars album, This is War

Was just sitting out on the patio smoking a cigarette. Shaun came out, talked about the lyrics to this Bjork song, "Army of Me", for a minute. I put out my cigarette & got up….

Shaun: Where are you going?

Me: Inside.

Shaun: No you’re not. You’re going to stay right here.

Me: No I’m not.

Shaun: Loser.

Me: Whatever.

What a fucking dick! Earlier, he was bitching about my attitude & saying something about me rolling my eyes. I said, "No, I was looking at my hair." He said something stupid, I rolled my eyes. Then I said, "Now I’m rolling my eyes." He scoffed & glared at me. Don’t tell me I have a fucking attitude. This is me, irritated w/all the freedom you try to take from me every fucking day.

I should just break up w/him. Make it quick, get it over w/, like ripping a band-aid off.  

Ha, we were arguing over the lyrics. He thought she was saying, "If you complain once more, I’m in love w/you." She really sings, "And if you complain once more, you’ll be met w/an army of me." Then he said something about he liked the song more when he thought she was talking about love. Ha, goes to show that he prefers ignorance over truth.

Then again, I prefer breathing over suffocating.

"No matter how many deaths that I die, I will never forget
No matter how many lives I live, I will never regret
There’s a fire inside this heart and a riot about to explode into flames
Where is your God? Where is your God? Where is your God?"
– 30 Seconds to Mars, "Hurricane"
 

I’m done w/all this for the moment. Going to dive into something else & let it flood my mind. Think I’ll write a lot tonight… I have a lot of things that have been running through my mind lately. If I don’t write them down, they’ll never stop & rest.