Today

Xmas is coming !!!! oh my god, thats just so damn fast. Bloody fast. But its been a good year, I would say. Counting my tidings now, but the best of all, is I graduated. Not that I really care much bout the degree, just that I am awfully exhilarted that I no longer have to deal with schools and the losers associated with that. No offence here, just pure defence. <– that seriously doesn't make any sense, but who cares, its Xmas time !!!

So I am sick with my job already. Looking for alternatives now haaha. And work really sucks big time. But school still suck more. Between the 2 evils, its best to just choose the lesser one. Still evil nonetheless. Talking about evil, I wonder what pple in hell do during xmas. Do they burn angels for thanksgiving? Holy crap.

I told my friend that I like her. Kinda though. I phrased it in such a way that its not totally telling. And so she replied with an equally misleading message. Haha thats so funny. Anyway I just let it die there. If it will lead to somewhere, it will lead there eventually.

Wow, I managed to summarize my life in 3 paragraphs. Thats totally depressing. woooooo…….

Lately I have this thought gnawing at me all the time. That I am never going to be really satisfied with life. That once I have something, I will lose the wish of wanting that something in the first place. And to me, I think that is just as important. Because its the feeling of having a goal and working towards it, that is the most satisfying and fulfilling. Once you have reached the goal, boom, all that feeling just go away. And you are left with the chore of finding something harder. And thats when you start to see the limit in yourself, and that finally becomes the reality that you can never have what you wanted. BOOM !!!

So its xmas. Please send me lots of gifts! Don’t be shy there right now. ITS XMAS TIME !!!