back for a little while part 2

Well, Since i would likely be back for just a little while, i have decided not to note any of my favs. Well, you know its kinda rude when someone notes me back, and i wasn’t there anymore. Well, thats assuming i am still on the other person’s fav list. LOL

One day, when i was on the toilet bowl, I suddenly have plenty of revelations.. Well, odd enough, its usually at the most unseeming places that one actually really has time to reflect. Lets just discount the glossy textiles that i have to face everytime i sit on the toilet bowl, cos it reflects pretty well actually. But thats only in the night when I can actually turn on the lights. The morning and afternoon sun tend to glare more than reflect. And they burn like hell. I have always read hell burns so dun blame me if it doesn’t. On another side note again, ice can burn too which is totally interesting. The other time when i trekked up to 4 km above sea level, it was cold but still not burning freezing… I wonder how it feels. Although truthfully i would rather see it happen to someone else other than me.

Here are a couple of toilet revelations. Some were meant only for entertainment value and i take no responsibility in anything that might arise in you after you read these. Although if you want to know how to make the textiles glossy, i might just answer.

I have always feel that my life is fucked up. Until I saw someone else’s life that is more fucked up. And yet for every such guy, there would be one whose life is even more fucked up. And it goes on and on and on and on forever. Well, the worst one probably didn’t live. And since he didn’t live, he can’t tell the tale. Typical story setting huh? Oh anyway back to topic, people always like to console people by telling them .. ” hey you life ain’t that bad, look at that poor fella over there, he’s like this this this, and yet he’s doing that that that” Well, although this kinda talk sometimes inspire me, but deep down inside, i have always felt that it is flawed. You don’t create happiness through seeing someone else’s misfortunes. That is totally wrong. Anyway i think that kinda concept is crap. I must be leaving way off topic now… Well, bloody crap.

Next. A lot of times I feel that life gave me up. And then after a while, i feel that maybe it wasn’t life that gave me up, it was me who gave up. And huh, finally at the point enlightenment, in the toilet of course, I realised it wasn’t anything that gave up on me, it was myself. Life is life. It is lifeless, and probably doesn’t care hoots about me. The only animate thing is me, and only me can give me up.

Whatever. I need to reflect more now… Stomach’s growling … Had too much cornflakes. Damn i am drinking 3 cups of coffee everyday now. Not taking breakfast and eating cornflakes in milk all the time…. I pretty much enjoy it but i doubt my body will like it that long lol …

Oh one more thing. I had my birthday recently. Got a lot of handphone wishings although hatefully to say, those are lame. Yup, but you don’t go ard tell people that, so i replied with typical ” thanks, thanks, and thanks” What a waste of sms.. haha… I want GIFTS. They speak more than SMS. was supposed to meet with jan at night, but her work was hectic so she skipped me. What an ass. LOL but i really like her a lot. She’s like my girl. was supposed to meet today again. but she cancelled it last minute. Jerk. so now its tmr after work. Then i will be so bloody tired. But i like to meet her, although when we actually meet up, sometimes it gets boring. ODd huh? what a queer world.

Now that i am 25, i am starting to really see death approaching.. woo hoo… odd thing to say, but you kinda feel that way when you see pesky people bugging you on the streets to buy insurance. All these things about planning your life, your future and your death makes you think of death. And i am starting to see myself in myself again. You know the whole stage of you developing from a baby to now. Well, after you get married and have children, that stage will begin anew, only difference is that you are the poor parents, and some undeserving idiots will be the kids. Woo hoo….. What an exciting life. God, you gotta love life man. Oh, and to make it worse, there’s the bloody warming going on… Man, shldn’t they just air-conditioned the entire earth. Make a mega Air-con or something and cool things off. We link the heat all the way to Mars and dump it there. Come on, Mars is an oven to begin with. Oh talking about that, Mars the chocolate sux. Snickers is better.

I am learning tennis and blading atm. Fun but i sux. And i hate it when i sux. and when you hate doing something, you tend to suck more. So you ended in spiraling deeper and deeper into the sucky black hole. Nah, they are fun… I am tanned like hell now. Pretty awesome tan. But i get back to fair complexion pretty easily.

Just remembered. I got a watch for my birthday. Not exactly got it. My frens subsidized 160 dollars of it. And i spent 280. That gotta be the most expensive thing i ever got for myself. Now i am broke like squeezing blood out of stones. Got that from one of my fav. Woo hoo. Now you at least know that i have read your posts.