*mom rant*

The mom rant is at the bottom of this entry

So I managed to survive the first few days back at work….was a bit brutal with my sleeping schedule messed up the way it was. will still take me a few days to get back to where I need to be I think.

Resume my math class monday…not looking forward to any of that. It means I will have even less stitching time. I would also like to try to be a bit more crafty and what such. been pinning a few new ideas to pintrest.

I have decided to try to be much better about my spending habits…matt keeps yelling at me about it. I decided to not activate my new debit card for the checking account. This way I cant spend money and not get yelled at. My gas always goes on a credit card as we get better cash back rewards that way….I do want to hit up shop rites can can sale this week and get pasta and a few other items real cheap…can make a lot with pasta…they have ronzoni pastas for 59 cents a box next week…i’ll have to make a small withdrawl to cover that. And I will have to make sure I use more coupons this year to.

I do have my little checking account that I hope to put some money into so that I may be able to better plan and do my christmas shopping when i see something good go on sale…i’ll have to start a notebook for that….basically i need to become a better, smarter shopper…..and i need to stop being impulsive….thats my biggest problem i think.

what else? supposed to snow this weekend a bit….thats only because monday is russian christmas and it always snows for russian christmas….see, its a good thing i still have my christmas tree up…i do plan to take that all down tomorrow and pack it up…shouldnt take long since i didn’t put much on the tree……and i think i will purchase a few new ornaments for my tree this year as well..

oh…………don’t recall if i said anything or not…i found out right before christmas that my dad had emergency surgery for a torn bicep in his right arm….he was playing with their dog and it ripped. well i had to heard it from my older sister mandy. havent heard from mom and i refuse to call…..my mom doesnt have the balls to tell me that this happened or tell me about the surgery..i’m really pissed at her. i didn’t even call and wish her a merry christmas or a happy new year. i’m just so pissed…..she can sit and play her littel facebook games and shit but cant tell me dad had surgery….fucking still seeing red over that one…….i havent seen her since she put the dog to sleep over the summer….back when she was drunk and said a shit ton of hurtful things to me……she needs to get a set of balls and learn to back shit up when she says something

and no i am not mad at my dad for any of this…the way my mother has been all these years makes me think dad was a victim and didn’t know better……..makes me so angry the way she was when we were growing up……people tell me i should talk to her because she is my mother but it goes both ways….Every damn time i go there and visit i leave crying and upset. matts mom tells me all the time i need to go see her…..she doesn’t understand the shit i have to put up with…..

oh and matts mom….ugh….seriously starting to annoy me….she tells me how she and steph go out shopping and what they do when they go out together. i never get invited to go…she never asks……i know i am not little miss stephanie and i am not her blood child but still….you tell me you want to do things with me and then you never ask…….fucking family i tell ya…they just suck……and matts dad needs to lay off of the drinking…..the guy drinks way to much…..his mom just ignores it…beginning to really hate being around his dad….i had them here new years day and his dad drank almost 12 beers on me. and then he had the balls to ask matt if we had anything stronger for him to drink…….uh……no…….not after you drank everything i had when we stayed there at the house between moves…..takes money to rebuild my alcohol stash……sheesh.

*sigh* i’m gonna go crash on the couch with a beer….fuck this crap…