I give up…

I am so tired of being used and ignored. I get the need to spend time with dad, family is important but it doesn’t mean sit around play games and look at porn. Porn can enhance but not when in secret and if that is all your doing and you ignore your partner you have no interest in the relationship whatsoever and I am just a damn fool for believing anyone will ever care. I will make myself scarce and get out of your life as I am not worth the time or care and if I am still breathing….I will be the one to start over in getting a new account, new place etc….though joining those I have lost sounds so much better right now.

July 6, 2018

Can be and so can be any electronic device as no one seems to want to really connect with the people around them these days. No time with dad is he lost his mother recently and his father has health issues. I deal with this heartbreak everyday and I am tired of being used and ignored especially with the secretly viewing porn when their is absolutely no intimacy let alone any sort of quality time. I only get acknowledged when he is bored or tired or takes a break from the computer. I get told to stand up for myself but end up made to feel like my feelings are wrong and standing up for myself criminalized.