I went to see psychic medium because of him
Before I start with my titled topic I found out last night Mike wife (I’m guessing) blocked me because he is no longer on my friends list but I can see he has a page if I’m not signed in so yeah…no form of contact from her towards me.
Anyways about 2 1/2 weeks ago I went to see a psychic medium because I felt in regards to Mike I needed something more. I’m not a big psychic and spirit person, the lady I went to I researched and I personally thought she was good. She said our relationship was weird/strange and a roller coaster that there was distance, separation, interference and not enough communication I told her he passed she said he is around me strongly and he is my guardian angel and that he did love and care for me and I made him happy also he wants me to live my life. She said I haven’t healed and I crippled by the pain and he will show me somethings in my dream but when I’m not in so much pain. She said I will be ready to be in a relationship in a year. She says I will start talking to someone online in fall to winter and develop feelings, I haven’t done that forever so that won’t happen I will try to make sure of that. She says my family doesn’t understand, which is true: dad and siblings don’t really care and my mom is upset with him and wants me to hate him and be upset with him which I’m not. They don’t know if I’m depressed my mom would be surprised and I shouldn’t be for or over someone who lied to me. The only one in my instant family member out of 5 of them that ask me if I was ok since he died was my dad, he asked me every morning for a week or 2. Of course my friends, a cousin, and an uncle asked me how I was which of course my reply was alright. On the way to see the psychic I was saying please come through for me Mike and be there I had in mind to ask if his girls would be ok but decided not to because I’m like surely their mother is capable of taking care of them and they have his family and each other, maybe that’s why he is around me strongly because I have no one to share the grief and pain with. So when it came down to it the only question I asked was: if he was in a good place? and she said he’s very happy… so that and him being my guardian angel means
he is in heaven because I’m sure hell doesn’t do guardian angels. I was at one point going to ask why did he do me the way he did again and why he lied but I know what he would say because he basically told me before that he will lie to keep me and he doesn’t want to loose me, so I didn’t need to ask those questions. I said I would like another reading to have a full conversation but now I’m like no I think I’m good no need after all what would be the point. She told me wanted balloons, so the week after balloons he got, went to our make out place and release them there. Bottom line is our relationship was based on a lie but the love was real on both sides.
Happy Independence Day/4th of July by the way