ponderings

 It seems that life has a way of coming around full circle. Roxie and I had a discussion, at length, and we realized that our only "fights" consist of her becoming upset, irritated, or angered at something – whether or not it has to do with me – and me trying to figure it out, without letting it go, to the point of annoyance. So we’ve fixed that. When I can tell she’s less chipper than the usual, I ask her once if somethings wrong, and then I drop it. Turns out, that works a lot better than pestering her, and she tells me what it was that was bothering her. 

Looking back, over the past decade or so, I can say that I’m truly happy where I am in this very moment. I finally got over feeling like Abby was "The -One-That-Got-Away." I haven’t once wished the person I was with was her since moving to the west coast. Speaking of the West Coast, I absolutely adore it here. I can’t ever see a reason to go back east for more than just a visit. The temperature, the seasons, the mountains, the rivers… it’s the perfect place to be alive. Back to important-er things; I’m also completely over Amanda. I know this, because I saw her recently and felt nothing. 

I’ve pretty much come to a decision about what I want to do with the Cameron situation, too.

Life, it seems, falls apart at times. But this truly is so that something much better can fall together. Thank you, to everyone in my past. I wouldn’t change a single iota of everything I’ve gone through with you all, from the good sides and the bad. Because, without the shit I have been put through, I would never be able to appreciate the perfection I have, in this very moment, to this extent. And for that, I love you all.