“this is what it means…

…to be held.”
natalieg r a n t

four weddings and a funeral.

i can’t even…
i don’t know.

…the seasons are changing, now.

and we’ve all changed so much that i can’t really figure out what to expect…

all i know is that all of my previous definitions for love have been burned and i don’t even understand what happens to people when they decide to fight it all together.

this whole thing is a war and all the time before this the battles have taken me under.

here now.
at the perfect time we opened our eyes.

and i love everything we touch. that’s touched us.

and i don’t know how long we can stay here…
but come what may.

i wouldn.t go about quoting ‘moulin rouge’ – i don.t really believe in that sort of love anymore…and neither should you (wait, … you never did)

stick shift.

August 31, 2005

“come what may” isn’t JUST from moulin rouge. in fact, that didn’t even cross my mind as i typed it.quite simply, i’m just going to take whatever comes. bring it on.

I figured you wouldn.t be that naive. anyway…i.ve sort of had several epiphanies on the love front lately…and i.ve been trying to get a hold of you…but you are NEVER HOME!

Oh, and i thought i.d mention that i went to a concert (free – it.s new york baby) with your favourite front man from Bush.

impulse.

September 2, 2005

the seasons change. eventually they change enough so that they are back to what they originally were. and sure, time has changed things a bit, but not to the extent that they are unrecognizable… thanks for the note. i like your diary – i’m going to add you to my favorites, if you don’t mind.

Each night I feel the distance that has grown between usOpen up as lonely as the space between the starsI wish that I could find a wayTo smash my fist right through these wallsOf ugliness and emptinessAnd gently touch your face whatever, i’m retarded…it doesn’t even matter anymore

Wintermute.

September 8, 2005

change is the spice of life. no one should ever go against it, cause they can’t help it. if anything, take whatever’s offered to you and go with it. thanks for not forgetting about my journal.

aglow

September 12, 2005

I never understand, though I try to <3 I think your words do beautiful things.ryn;; You are such a doll. Thank you <3