Oh I’m Giving Up This Time.
A dangerous path indeed. I’m at war with myself. A large part of me has given up. The future doesn’t matter. Damn the consequences. And then there’s the part that hasn’t completely given up, that fights the "fuck it" mentality. That part dares to hope. I find myself hoping again and then I have to remind myself of reality. Hope can’t stand up to that at all.
I never wanted to be this person. Becoming like this…it’s exactly what I fought against for so long. David started it. Cody finished it. He might as well have carved the R.I.P on the gravestone himself. I don’t think I can every forget the pain I felt and because of that, I’m permanently changed.
*hugs you*
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don’t ever go, i’ll miss your entries too much. (even though usually i assume that when you’re not writing, things are going well [or better])
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That’s ridiculous. You’ve barely been together at all. I MYSELF have more a claim to loving you than he does; we’ve at least known each other a while. -_- I hate hate HATE people who drop the L-bomb a few weeks into a relationship. Agg-rah-vae-shun. Sorry. ;x
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I can’t say I haven’t done the same thing though. That I haven’t done it more than a few times. And for a while it’s good, but you know all along that it’ll fail and when it does it…just does. But it’s not really sad at all. Meh. I feel horrible for that. You’re wrong though, you know a lot of things still. Just love is wtf. *taps your nose* Keep your faith in yourself.
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Same here. My rebirth was 7/20/2008. When did Cody force your rebirth?
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