*sigh* I Hope the Complicated Ones Are Worth It

This conversation occurred after a few days of not seeing each other which occurred after several days of being around each other practically nonstop.

Me: I know we’ve both been busy and all but I wanted to ask you if you’re trying to tell me something because it seems like you’ve been kind of distant lately =P

Him: I’ve just been busy.  I was kinda thinking the same with you.

I go with what I see.  The last thing I want is to be pushy so I kinda react based on what I see you doing.  I’ll do things to feel around, to get an idea of what you want from me, but I won’t just force myself on you.  So I backed off a little in case you felt crowded

Hmmm.  That’s an interesting approach.  I see someone backing away from me as them wanting more space.

No =P I don’t need space.  I told you before, if you want me you got me.  I’ve tried to make sure you know that I want you, but I don’t want to be chasing someone around ya know?  I have a fear of being obnoxious with my attention I think.

I’m the same way.  I won’t chase anyone anymore.  Maybe that’s arrogant of me, but I’m not going to spend my time convincing someone to be with me.  Too much else to do with my time.

I work kind of like a mirror.  The more affectionate you are, the more I am, that kind of thing.  I don’t expect to be chased =P

Hmm.  Interesting analogy.

Balance =P  Maybe it’s a libra thing lol, I dunno.

Well I’m two fish, attached at the tail by a rope, swimming in opposite directions.  Figure that one out.  Can you say fickle, lol

I’m definitely a "ball’s in your court" type person though.  I’ll make it known that I want to be with you but I won’t chase.  I’m here until you tell me you don’t want me to be.  Psh! I’m as fickle as can be.  Always have been.  I think age has tamed it a bit though.

Should be interesting to see how things play out then.

Ha =P  It’s all on you, sir.  I know where I stand.  Fickleness doesn’t have much effect on my decision making in regards to stuff like this…

Hmm.  You say that, but this is the second time you put space between us.  Just an observation.

=P  Silly.  But I haven’t gone anywhere…nor will I unless you make it clear that that’s what you want.  As far as distance goes, I can point out the exact reactions I got from you that made me think that’s what you wanted.  Mirror, remember?

Maybe I don’t reflect correctly in mirrors.

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e=”color: rgb(204, 153, 255);”>And I’ve considered that which is why I tell you specifically that you will actually have to verbally tell me that you don’t want me around anymore =P

Noted.

I just ask that you dont play games or lead me on.  Honesty is important.  I’d rather be told I’m not wanted so I can start cleaning up the mess as soon as possible than to waste my time waiting around trying to figure it out from what I observe.

You sound like you want me to tell you I don’t want to be with you.  Honestly, I don’t know what to think, this whole backing off thing just confused me.

No not at all.  I just dont’ want you to be afraid of hurting my feelings if you do change your mind.  I see it happen a lot.  I don’t want it to happen to me. I didnt’ back off too much.  I just tried  not to suffocate you.  I told you i missed you and made a couple of references to my attraction to you.

okay, well i need to figure it out then.

I’m not chasing, that’s all.  It’s like I’m standing at arms length, still reaching out to touch you to let you know I’m still here.  All you gotta do is open your arms and I’ll be right there =P

Lol okay.