I Just Want to Match

It’s okay to feel like this because it means I care right?  It means I love?  Is that what I feel?  If it is for so noble a feeling as love, I suppose I can endure.  I suppose it will be okay.  At least I hope it will in the end.  All I can do is love, and need, and want…I just can’t stand it sometimes when I have all these guys telling me that ….other guys should be chasing me, that I should never have to wait for a phone call, that a guy should be begging to take me out on my birthday.  Secretly, I feel that way too because when I care about someone I give all that and so  so  so much fucking more and for once, I just want someone to want what I have to give and to appreciate it and to give it back.  I just want to match.  I just want to match.