Just Let This Work

God, I’m overflowing again.  But it’s not all bad for once =) I’ve only felt this way for someone once before in my life and that was Sam.  I’m not talking about love, either.  I’m speaking of something else, this desire to be the best you can be for someone, wanting to make them happy, knowing that everything in life is so much easier just because that person is in your life.  I don’t know the word for this, if there is one that encompasses it all. 

In my drunkeness last night, I remember thinking…"just let this work, whatever or whoever is out there, just let this work and i just might believe in something after all."

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And I don’t care!  I’m not holding back ever again.  If I get burned, I get burned.  But I’m gonna feel everything that I can because that’s what I’m good at.  That’s what I’m the best at.  I seem to have some automatic amplification system in operation that pushes my feelings to the farthest extremes. 

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October 5, 2011

yay!

October 5, 2011

It’s a good feeling. When you really attach yourself to that feeling, you develop such caring for that person that you don’t even care if you end up with them or not. You just want them to be happy, and you know that with or without them in future, you have already become a much better, stronger person — even though they may have no idea what they, or your experiences with them have done to you.