another weekend alone

*sighs* another weekend about gone outside having to go to his dad, once again spend it alone because he’s plugged in. I don’t know what to do but cry alone. With money tight and no car of my own I can’t go and drown my pain in late night coffee. Hopefully things will be caught up soon and back on track but a part of me still just wants to leave this world leaving money behind because that seems all anyone cares about outside of using me as a live in maid and cook. Time for a shower….