Engaging

So here I am slacking away at my diary entries once again.  I do, however, have plenty of reason and excuse for the lack of attention.  I’ve had my plate completely full the last week.  A wedding is to be planned and prepared for.

Yes, I, Jordan Green, am getting married in March =0)  Emily and I were engaged this last Monday!  I couldn’t possibly be happier right now, and I swear the anxiousness is going to give me ulcers.  "How did this happen?" you might ask.  Well, I’ll do my best to describe what has happened as of late.

I met Emily about 3 months ago, but we were never really acquainted in any way other than knowing who the other was.  I was beginning the more serious steps of getting back into the church again, and I wasn’t exactly looking for any kind of relationship, especially after the relationship between Beth and I had ended many months before.  To be quite honest, the idea of marriage, children, and the like terrified me beyond belief.  I just didn’t feel ready to tackle anything of that nature just yet.  I guess you can get that exasperated over the idea when you’ve just ended an almost 4 year relationship that went pretty much no where.  I guess it all just hit this stagnant point where it was all just the same trouble-filled relationship that went nowhere further.  But, I digress….

I began dating about two months ago just because I felt it would be good for me to go on some casual dates and get back into the game.  I went on a few dates, but I could never see them going on to anything more meaningful.  I mean, I enjoyed myself, but I couldn’t see myself establishing any kind of serious relationship with any of the gilrs I dated.  Anyways, I had my eye on Emily for a bit because I thought she was cute, and I thought she may just be interested in a date, but eventually, I just decided I’d just ask her if she’d like to come over to my place to help make some cheesecake for FHE.  Things went pretty well and we had a great time, so I figured I’d ask her to come with some friends and I to Devil’s Ice Box.  Obviously, things went pretty darn well there as well. 

Next thing you know, we’re spending almost every day doing things together and getting to know each other better and enjoying ourselves immensely.  For some reason I felt this amazing spiritual attraction to her (yes, I know, for all you non-spiritual readers out there, you may now gag or throw up or whatever it is you do… haha) and I had never felt so comfortable and at peace with someone ever before.  I knew something was right about this relationship and we both voiced our mutual interest in one another. I decided to begin praying about why I felt so strongly for her, because I’d never felt such a strong attraction before.  it took me a little while to put my own personal excitement off to the side and concentrate on what the spirit was telling me, and once I was able to do that, pretty much every ounce of my being began screaming that this was the young woman that I was to marry. 

I finally decided I was going to go speak with the Bishop about everything and speak to my parents because I didn’t want to make any kind of rash decision.  I had gone from being terrified of marriage to wanting to propose to someone after dating them for only 3 weeks!  Part of me was telling me that I was crazy and that I couldn’t possibly have found the right person to marry so incredibly quickly, but the spirit was manifesting even stronger feelings of comfort and reassurance that this was the right decision.  By the time I left the Bishop’s office, I had made up my mind that I was going to propose.  The only question was "when?"….

I decided to go shopping for a ring last Monday, but when I went out to get in my truck, I noticed that my battery was dead.  I tried to find someone to help jumpstart my truck, but eventually I just had to have Emily come over and do it.  Funny thing ws that when I grounded the cables, my alarm system kicked on and the doors locked causing my keys to get locked in the truck.  I’d already locked my front door, so I couldn’t get my spare set inside, so I ended up spending the rest of the day with Emily.  I knew Emily was already suspecting something, so I couldn’t really fuel her curiousity more, so I just spent the afternoon with her.  Julie – her sister… she has 7 siblings – and the two of us went back to my place and watched a movie and then they left.  30 minutes later, at midnight, I heard a knock at the door and it was Emily wanting to talk about some things.  Anyways, we chatted away for a while and for some reason the timing was just right at that time and, ring or not, I proposed.  I just couldn’t ignore how strong the spirit was at that time and how right it felt to just propose right there.  I had a big elaborate plan for the weekend, but neither of us would give up that moment for anything… it was so special and incredibly amazing….

We went ring shopping in the morning along with her sister since her sister was already "in the know" because I’d been asking her for ring advice.  I wish I had a picture right now of the ring, but I’ll post one up as soon as I can get one up.  What was really cool is that she ended up getting the exact ring I would have picked myself.  It’s absolutely beautiful… and I’d just post an inernet picture up of the ring, but it’s even more beautiful when you can actually see it on her hand.  We also got the wedding bands at the same time.  The next few days were just incredibly surreal to us as we were still getting used to the idea that we were going to be getting married and start a family together.  I still get goosebumps thnking about it.  It’s amazing just how many things fell right into place for tht two of us and landed us in one another’s lives.  I could say so much more, but a lot of it just too personal to share with the rest of the world, so I’ll have to write another private entry for all of that. 

Right now we’re planning everything and preparing for March.  We’re both big planners, so it works out wonderfully and we love spending the time to make sure everything works out.  Tomorrow we’re meeting with a woman about renting a house to live in while we both finish school.  It’s cheaper than the apartment I’m staying in right now and we’ll actually have a decent house to live in.  We both want the privacy of a home and we both want to have a dog.  The house we’re looking at is really cute, though, although we won’t be able to use the garage for the car.  Oh yeah… I’m selling my truck since we won’t need two cars and I’m also selling a lot of my expensive audio/visual gear because I’ve got more important things to worry about right now.  I’m just so excited to get married and start a family together!  We don’t plan on having any kids, though, until we’ve been married at least a year, so we’ll see what happens when we get to that point. 

Phew… this has been a long entry.  Anyways, I’ll probably have more to write later, but I just wanted to get caught up!