Narcoleptic

Has anyone seen a dog with narolepsy?  Well, I saw a dachsund with this unfortunate problem.  Imagine watching a little dachshund running around the yard and suddenly it drops to the ground completely unconscious.  I know I shouldn’t laugh,… but it’s just way too funny.  *sigh* I’m a bad person, aren’t I? 

I’m finally gonna get my tennis fix tomorrow night.  Jackie and I are going to head out and beat the crap out of each other with tennis raquets.  Yeah… that’s right, RAQUETS.  I’m a British wannabe.  I also use colour and humour.  So shoot me…. or brush my teeth or something.  She has no idea that I’ve been bluffing for the last year.  I’m going to unleash a primal serve on her tomorrow night and show her who is master.  Okay, so I’m British and delusional. 

Tomorrow morning I’m heading out to do some more field research with Brett.  Eventually we’ll get this thing finished.  It’s taken a lot longer than expected, mostly due to the fact that he’s been losing his assistants.  Hopefully we can finally get it finished so he can stop worrying about it. 

On a more serious note, I’m sure many of you out there (at least the people who actually read this diary) have heard that I’ve been thinking about getting back into church again.  I’ve been inactive for about 3 years now spending most of that time thinking about what I really believed and what direction I wanted to head in.  For the past year and a half, I’ve been speaking on and off with the local missionaries and getting a little active with the people from the university ward.  I’ve always known that there is a G-d and that I am a spiritual person, but the short story is that I felt I was taking my personal faith for granted and needed to find out for myself what I really believed in.  Recently, within the last few months, I’ve been spending more time reading the scriptures and studying, and I’ve begun to see how much I really do know that I’m heading in the right direction. 

Last night I met with my bishop for the third time and we went over a lot of things I needed to talk about… mainly decisions from my past and things that I needed to repent for.  I know that some people I know don’t really understand why I’ve chosen to repent or exactly what the whole process really entails, but it’s the choice I’ve made and the right choice for me.  I have a strong desire to strengthen my relationship with G-d, and I think it is very easy for someone to feel offended  by my decisions, especially when they don’t personally understand those decisions. 

Anyways, I have lost a friend because of my choice to become an active Mormon again, and it hurts me immensely.  I never wanted to hurt someone by deciding to return to church, but it happened… and I feel horrible about it.  I know what I’m doing is the right thing, but seeing someone hurt because it if just sucks.  I just hope that someday it can change, but I’m willing to accept whatever does happen.  Ultimately I just want to be a good person and make the right decisions.