no one reads these things Well no one lo
no one reads these things
Well no one looks at these things anyway so I am going to let it out.
I want to meet someone, I think I want to meet the person who created
Pandora…well at least the citizen cope station. My brother made a
solid point one night, -music is important- Man do I agree. everything
in my life that meant anything is connected to a song. I wish I could
make music. I make art. I love it so much its such a release but music
helps so many more I feel. I don’t know. Art is a blessing all and all
I guess. To be a lonely artist could be one of the best worst things
ever. If you are one you will understand what I mean. God I miss a lot
of things, music, cars, my woods, but most of all fires. God I loved to
sit by the fire I think I felt most at ease when there was a fire near.
I am far from the worst parts of my life and want to stay that way. I
am so happy and am so scared that I could loose it all at any second. I
hate that, Whenever I am happy I am always wondering when is the gig
going to be up and I have to go to back to a place I never wanted to
be..(excuse me for being a kid) ever ever again. I am so blessed and am
so thankful, I don’t want to waste a moment of my life! My friends are
my coworkers and I truly love and care for them and we are all real
artists. Artists are hard to find. Actors painters an….. are not
hard to find but artists..oh thank you God, once you find one and truly
appreciate them you can find more, but fakers are easy to find ,
they wear many masks. It makes me sad because art truly saved my life
and it is sacred to me. Some people treat it as a way to be something
that they are not, they are a slave to themselves and they don’t even
know-Matisyahu. I wish I could tell them that there is something out
there that they are meant for that will make them so much more
happier/fulfilled. I wish we could all find it right away. If I did
not find art I would never be able to deal with what goes on in this
world. I am happy that there are scientists and accountants and lawyers Ect…ect… because they have what makes them whole. If it feels anyway
the way art feels for me then I am so happy it is around for them. Art
tunes me from lonely and scared to a blue birds flying above
while sunflowers bathe in an ocean of silk, and only I know what that
means…unless you do to then we have a connection and that my friend
is a beautiful thing…it is art. ha ha ha, I still cant begin to
explain it but thank you God it makes me fell like I’m doing something
right.