Dear Die-ary Just a catch up

As promised after the 15th, I stopped talking to him.   Well… to be honest I stopped talking to him long before that.  It started the night I went out with some of my friends to drive up an down the strip.  He had been texting me throughout the day telling me of just how bad he was having it.  His last text was something along the lines of “I don’t have anymore money, I wasted it all I only have 30 dollars left.” I didn’t respond right away, Don’t remember why exactly but I just didn’t.  But when I was in the car with my friends I remembered and text him back “wtf did you spend all your money on?” cause he was suppose to be saving money so that he could come back here and blah blah blah.  Anyway.  I was expecting to get an answer from him…. But this new number popped up and I was confused.. So I read the message, turned out to come from his whore.  I literally Brought Hell To Earth.  I immediately dialed the number back and just bombarded her ear off with lots of crap I can’t even remember.  Then I told her to give the phone to him, and it continued with him…. And then… he did the biggest mistake a person could EVER do with me.  “You were just so easy to play with, you were a game.  Nothing more”… oh yeah.  Exact words right there… so… I flared up even more.  I literally RAGED.  I was so mad… and my poor friends, Greg and Ian were literally really freaked.  Lol I was telling this guy on the phone off in Spanish then English all random like! 

Ian was completely horned up by what was going on to tell you the truth lol. 

Anyway…. I hung up.  Forgot him.  And kept on hanging with my friends doing out… eh well stuff lol.  don’t worry I didn’t have sex or fuck up like that.  But lets just say I had too much of what ever the fuck was going around. 

So all throughout the night I kept getting text from him with the “are you alright”, “I was playing” “You just pissed me off”  “I’m sorry” and so on and so one… All of them got a big FUCK YOU back from me.  I wasn’t going to play the game any more.  I don’t care how “delicate” the situation is.  Or how hard it is for her right now.  Like I said, he better hope her husband gets her before I do.  I’m one mean bitch and I don’t let shit die.  Period.  So we talked that night.  And it came down to the usual “I’m hanging up on you” and my “If you hang up I wont ever fucking talk to you.  Period” and he hung up and texted with “Its for the better I promise” and No.  He got no response… nor will he ever.

Ever since then we haven’t talked, not that it will happen.  I’d rather the next time I come across him or have to speak to him it be in person. That way I can just walk away.  Yup.  I wont even fucking bother with him.  But his bitch.. Oh I don’t care if they aren’t together anymore, I’ll still do what I can to fuck up her day. 

But yeah.  That’s the last on the Carlos chapter.  I’ve hung out with Greg and Ian more lately.  But the constant head aches and mood keep me home for the majority of the time.  I just really cant bring myself to go out… no matter what I do.  So yeah.  AF hottie/Brian invited me out… or more of to go watch movies with him… in a hotel room… and that really disappointed me… seems like he’s barking for something that I’m not going to give out.  No matter what.  It just isn’t right.  I havent heard back from him in a while and I don’t doubt it has to do with me not wanting to go out and do that with him… oh well… but yeah besides that nothing else has been going on.  I’ve gone to the Fair twice, first time with the family second time with my mom and her drunk friends as designated driver.  I cant say I didn’t like it.  Cause it was really fun watching them be drunks and funny.  Mom Drank a lot, and so did her friends, it was funny to see them sneak their tequila bottles around and pouring them in to their margaritas.  By the end of the night I was outrageously frustrated and just wanted to get home but the party moved on over to my moms friends house and it didn’t end till a few hours later.

You know its strange, that I’m the 21-year-old and yet they are the ones doing all the drinking lol.  But its alright.  I can’t afford the calories in drinking right now.  I’ve been doing so well I’m Impressed.  I’ve managed to hit the 50s already!  Which is a big step since I’d been stuck in the 60s for so long now.  My moms clothes fits me now.  Which is a big thing, since It used to fit me really tight back in the day.  Not to mention 5 pounds and I’m lighter than her!  Rosie, my older sis is about 30 pounds heavier than me now.  And I’m happy!  Yes I’m really happy!  Because I have finally managed to weigh less than her in such a long time.  But now I have to pass mom and after that I have to at least level with Cynthia.  But that’s not until my birthday.  My boobs are shrinking and that’s ok.  Really it is.  If they shrink I wont mind.  Hell I’d be happy for them to go back to being a B cup! … C makes me feel fatter… heavier… just UGH…

I still haven’t found a job… but I’ve sent resumes here and there and where not!  Its insane that no one calls or that no one is hiring… but its fair season… everyone has a full staff right now… after the fair is gone and school starts up positions will open up and I’ll be able to get a job again.  Hopefully.  

I can’t lie and say I haven’t been depressed lately… I spend most of my time sleeping and just being grumpy.  Its strange, cause I don’t want to go out at all.  I’ll go out of my way to stay home and just sleep instead.  Yeah I know that’s a big bad thing for me to be doing… but I don’t really care.  I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep… that plus lose weight.  Strange huh? Lol cause you can’t lose weight without doing anything.  

Moms been keeping an eye on me when she can.  Making sure I eat at least something…. So I wait till shes home to have something.  And that usually pleases her and sends her on her merry way.  Besides that nothing much is going on.  Haven’t done much… haven’t anything.  Blah…

Oh yeah.  I’m thinking of making my diary friends only.  But I’m not sure yet, cause I know the jackass has the link to this one… and it makes me slightly uncomfortable knowing he’s keeping tabs on me or something…. Stalker style or something.   Anyway.  Have  a good day duckies…. I hope it stops raining here… I really do hate thunder storms =(

~Anti~

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