Reply to unsigned note
I have been thinking about this for a couple days, and I wasnt going to send some nasty finger pointing posted to my caretaker about the unsigned note that was left in my dairy. I have a really good idea who left the note, and I will say one thing right now about this I dont care what you write, its a free dairy, and I have left my dairy open to all notes but you should have enough of a back bone to leave your name next time. You said your note wasnt a hate note and I agree it wasnt one. But no one needs to whisper anything in my ear to make me feel better. Right now there is only two things that will make me feel better. One of those is making that turn east, and heading the hell back to San Diego. The second would be wrapping my hands around a nice .45 caliber pistol and having a box of ammunition to expend down range. I am still confused though how you can say what you said. When I tell my friend I love them, it doesnt mean I am going to run off an be with them, or have them come to San Diego. Who knows what will happen in my life. And using someone you havent the first clue about what being used is all about. Yes, I flirt I am a huge flirt. I will admit that time and time again Right now I am not in love with anyone. And right now, in love is the last thing I need. I have far to much crap to deal with back in San Diego to even try to think about being in love.
If you are so curios why didnt you write me an e-mail ? I know you have that as well. And if you dont have it saved anywhere, it is on my diarys front page. But wait, you wanted to leave that note to make people think more about talking to me I know how that goes. You dont want to leave a hate note, but why not leave Warning a Player Note. That is one thing I am not There is nothing to gain by playing a person. I know I said something in one of my entries about having a crush I dont even know if you read that one I really dont care what you read to make you jump to the thoughts you did. But just because I think someone is sweet and kind is what I feel. Its not something I can act on. I have far to many things to do to even try to act on my feelings. And you know what, I dont have to justify my love for someone to you. I dont have to justify a damn thing to you, or to anyone for that matter. This is MY LIFE understand that. MINE not yours. I know I have done some things that have hurt people, and I am sorry for doing them. When I am able to, I do tell them I am sorry. Life goes on okay ! So if I tell Jessie, or Teresa, or Kate, or Mell, or Lauren, or who ever else I want to Love ya, it is for reasons that I know, and only I know. Its none of your business, not will it ever be any of your business. Bitter I am not trying to sound, but that remark you said about them whispering in my ear, that was the wrong thing to say to me. Support from friends is an important thing, and when a person has been separated from his kids like I have been, on a deployment like I am on now, and dealing with all the crap that keeps coming up in San Diego, I have my friends there to help me. I thank them for the help they give me and I love them for that as well.
I believe I have said enough about this but who knows, maybe I will have to come back and write some more. I dont know. I am sure there will be more notes left, and that is fine. Go ahead, leave your notes. And you know what hold on for this one, but thank you for coming by and reading my dairy. Its there to be read, and well you have done just that again.
Take care all, and Ill write more again later.
all your base are belong to us
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heh my name was mentioned but i know its not me…isn’t that amusing
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