12/28/04

It’s on the tip of my tounge. The edge of the cliff. verge of realization that nothin you do will make this just fit. SO what do we do? we just call it quits. needless to say it was wrong in everyway.

My head is pumping. the music is tearing it apart, if i could pull it off then i’d be on top in the spot light again. Head held high. ::sighs:: it’s a wonderful life. Hope all you want you get, fruation of all my dreams down pouring cries out in the misty steam rain drip dropping on my face.

Steady now can’t fall apart tomorrow is a day away you are slowly tearing out my heart. fumbled it now. slidding to the ground can’t seem to make it to another first down. You think you relate to waht i’m sitting here dictating to my self over and over again in my head. What is it that you really know, the steady flow of words that come tumbling out. Rumbling through my head faster then the speed of thought sounds traveling back home i dont’ want you back now.

Is it too late to turn it over. Hear the engine roar. It’s comming from my heart as i sit here with it outpouring onto page. Slip and slide into another dull routine. Sad sages know nothing, Filling it up on empty plates. At times i can be irrate, disipate the lost love of another, hold it together steady, i’m ready to just let go.

How should i have known. You never told me that. I’ll hold you to that. Wont let you go untill you give me that. Can’t survive much longer in this habitat. You smother me wont let me breathe cant concentrate i’m ready to leave.

For go those long winded conversations, suck in air. It’s hard to hold my head up don’t let up on false aligations. I’m tailoring this to you. Sing songs of yesterday fester now here in my grave. Don’t let up now.

Whatever this was it was, I can’t make up excuses for it. Fallin for it again. sweet words with hidden meanings bite hard as they collide through the air attacking my ear. Slipped into another day far away from you. I’m so fucking witty rhyming air with ear look at that it worked again. Doesn’t matter now i can simply fit in anything to prolong this rant. Faint heart beats murmuring in the distance, it’s raining again.

Close to the end it’s all blown away, stop trusting that friend. Stab me in tha back billigernt fuck can’t stop for a minute. I go away and it just falls a part need to transplant a new heart. I’m needing something different you just bring more pain please stop with all these inconsitancies. Slowly feeding my needs. You watch me fall to my knees. Pleading you, Oh please don’t go. Watch how slow you turn around another sad frown today.

Tying things up it seems to be my way just keep going till another day. Thank you for giving me something to look forward to when i come back.

News: I cut off all my hair and i’m not comming home till May

 have a nice day.