12/25/04

Whatever this is it’s not what you think it is. It’s my last will, my last rite my last anything to do with this. I’m falling deeper down. Calm me down as i spiral away from the structure, last night he told me he fucked her let me down on too many levels.

The agenda is simple. Let my lip split for just one more sip of life from the golden cup. ale pouring down my shirt. It’s upserd, upstart that i am. You try to jump start my life. Incoherent thoughts over low angry growls. Frowns worn year round twist it upside down smiles clouding my vision. Its nothing now just my fucking holy mission.

Listen to them all singing along. Slowly reliquished the blade. I found that i might need some aid. Lend me a helping hand, to me that has too many meanings. Finding feelings of remorse wish i could retort with something witty spur of the moment comedy make me smile.

In oblivion thats where i’ll be going. Landing the lead role of a guy taht can’t get past his own front porch, it’s a scocher. Burning up the streets someone turn off the heat. release the beat thats splitting my head in two. I’m trough with the hollow hellos of passed by days. You were supposed to be my friend instead you’re the hit man in disguise. I find that i’m just wasting my time with you.

It’s not to late to hope for a sunny day, rain washed it all away. Sad sickness rising in my gut. It’s fucked the laid back attitudes of what i thought once was. It’s not there. Say hello to tomorrow kiss today goodbye slow winding stairs, fall suddenly to my death, the rest of course is just bottled anger can’t put a finger on it now flip everything right around. Sidewalk seems to be my friend.

The gutters are gleaming we are all down here. Look up at the stars and hope. With that in mind i know i lost it all. crossing the rope bridge into the forsaken lands. It’s something i should have done a long time ago. I know it’s not to late. God i love you so. Hurts me even more to say that then for any of you to hear it. Hold you close, in my hand i hold the rose red drops of sunshine dropping in to say hello.

Goodbye, to you it’s been to long. Nothing new but the mean look in the eyes. Flash of green jealous of hidden lies. decietful stances i take upon the alter, don’t falter now it’s comming through to you oh so clear. Clever little lies pretty little lines. Poetic justice. I find that i’m slowly losing my mind. Footholds on humanity slipping, gripping onto the dark knight returns. anger thats what that is. Conquer that from within or have it stick with you through it all. Helping you causeing you to fall. Let us sit here and pray, today is a new day with new thougths.

Easy to read labito  something to slip into and once again i’m gone. Whispering the words……………..