12/17/03

Yesterday i talked to my mom and she told me that i had to accomodate to her rules now that i’m back with her. She told me that i had the option to choose if i wanted to go out with Jose i could but i had to tell him to come to my house and talk to my mom and that was the only way she’ll let me talk to him. i was kinda happy because she is giving me the freedom to actually go out with him. but i’m scared. let’s not forget that he has a kid and that his parents won’t accept me and that Jose might say no and i dont’ want to hear that. if it’s true i don’t want to know for real that he doesn’t care about me and that he doesn’t love me. I’ve been talking to the social worker and everytime i go he makes me feel so bad. i wish all my problems were over. i can’t take it anymore.