*massages head*

Well.

As I predicted, (or perhaps it was a self-fulfilling prophecy) I slept for shit last night.
Well, I suppose that’s not true.  I couldn’t fall asleep to save my life, it took me till nearly 3 in the morning.  I spent most of the night sitting on Facebook chatting with people and reading for classes today.  I thought for a while I had the wrong textbooks for a class, got frustrated, then looked again an hour later and found out that they were the right ones after all.

I was also up wanting to talk to Nathan before I went to sleep, pulled a crazy "YOU WEREN’T TALKING TO ME WHY?" even though I knew why.  I stayed on the phone longer after I stopped being crazy so that we could have a normal conversation.

I then sat and thought about why I keep doing that.  Freaking out whenever Nathan’s not here, and end up making him feel guilty for it.  I’ve got a lot of stuff to work on, cause just because he’s all perfect and puts up with me now, doesn’t mean it doesn’t get annoying, and doesn’t mean it’s okay.

I talked to Tiff, Cory, Chelsea and Tweak all online before finally attempting sleep around 2.  After laying in bed for about a half an hour and letting my mind wander to places it shouldn’t (as it usually does when I’m trying to sleep) I ended up turning on a light and reading for a while yet before I finally got myself to fall asleep.  I had to trick myself a bit to get to sleep though.

But once I was asleep, I slept like a rock.  No dreams, nothing.  Woke up to my roommate’s alarm clock drenched in sweat  and kinda nauseous, but it all went away after not too long.

Out of habit, I went online and tried to switch in the Writing Emphasis class I’ve been angsting over for a couple of days.

AND I FLIPPING DID IT.  THERE WAS A SEAT OPEN AND I TOOK IT AND OMG I’M IN MY WRITING EMPHASIS CLASS!!! 😀

I did my seated Happy Dance and Athena, my roommate, laughed at me.

Then I left to get breakfast and go to my class at 9.30.  While eating, I saw Adam, a friend from a few previous classes, and coincidentally the boyfriend to a girl in the class I had this morning.  He walked with me to class, asked where I was going, and I was like "Major Authors, the one I have with Cate…"
And he’s all "Oh, Cate’s still in bed cause she doesn’t have anywhere to be till 11…"

I didn’t have class till 11, and I was out and about and ready for class already.
But I just keep telling myself that I was subconciously doing it on purpose, cause if I HADN’T thought I had class at 9.30, I wouldn’t have been online when I switched to my Writing Emphasis class.

Oh man, the music we’re doing for choir thes semester is AMAAAAAAZING.  I’m sooooo excited.

OH DEAR GOD.

I just got asked AGAIN when Nathan and I are getting married.

Did I ever give the impression that there was any reason to expect such a thing any time soon?  Have I been talking to any of you and secretly whispering in your ear  about how I suspect Nathan’s out buying me an engagement ring?  Have I been sneaking in a "just kidding" at the end of my speeches about how much I couldn’t handle wedding planning while I’m in college?

Cause if I did, someone hit me in the head shortly thereafter, because I’m clearly suffering from amensia.

QUIT ASKING ME.  JUST CAUSE OTHER PEOPLE ARE GETTING MARRIED DOESN’T MEAN NATHAN AND I ARE.  IF AND WHEN WE DO MAKE THAT DECISION, IT’S NOT GONNA BE BECAUSE OUR FRIENDS TOLD US WE SHOULD, OR THE PEER PRESSURE OF IT WAS TOO MUCH.  I’D LIKE TO THINK THAT IF WE GOT MARRIED, IT’S CAUSE WE WANTED TO, BECAUSE WE FELT IT WAS TIME.  SO QUIT IT.

Just so you know 🙂  I’m not mad so much as really curious why people think going "Why aren’t you engaged, you should be," will make us go "Oh, okay, well if you say so!" and go out and buy a ring.  I mean, come ON.  I can’t help but laugh right now.

I’m kinda exhausted today.  I wanna go to sleep, but I don’t.  Mostly cause I have class in half an hour.
And it’s the class I’ve been fighting to get into, so there’s NO WAY I’m missing it 🙂