Walk Away

I can’t get over the thought that I’ve helped him.  We’ve been through a lot together, and I’m closest to him than any woman ever has been before me.

I did all this work, put in all this effort to break him in.

And I’m going to walk away and someone else is going to reap all of the benefits.

all of the fruits of my labor.

I’m invested.  I’ve invested so much into him.  And I know he has into me.  But the change is so slow and so slight that I just can’t keep feeling…hurt. all. the. time.

I know I have to let go of him.  I’m aware of my situation wholeheartedly…but the hope…the little glimmer of hope that suddenly it’s just going to click for him and he’ll realize what a fool he’s been and make good–

that’s what I really have to let go of.