1/2/07

bonjour,
C’est le journal de moi

I’ve had a bad day again. It can’t explaine is in English let alone french. I’m having a mental breakdown of sorts. for starters, i can trust no one here. I tell someone something in secrecy and in ten minutes someone else knows. and it has always managed that the someone else is the exact person i don’t want to knnow.

my second breakdown factor is I have no control over my room. it’s driving me crazy. i mean no control as in i can’t fix it its too messy. i keep trying and i end up crying and shit because I’m so fustrated. I’m just having an all around breakdown that my room and my rents aren’t helping any.

i’m just so fustrated. it’s rediculous. i’m on break from school but i’m more stressed here than i am at school. I can’t get things under control and I’m feeling hopeless. It’s pitifiul.

I can’t maintain a normal mind set! I’m so mad at everything here. it’s not restful at all. all i want to do now is listen to rock and metal and get fucked up so i don’t have to feal the real pain. it’s pitiful.

i’m sure my room isn’t the reason for me being so waked out but it’s what i’m bassing my wackedness on. i can’t go on living this way. nothing’s alright.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  i’m sooooooooo fustrated!

FUCK IT