1/13/05

well, tomorrow is the last day in the quarter, half of my junior year is over. Only 1.5 years of highschool left…that’s depressing! My problem solving class is over, now i’m supposed to have photo-digital, but i’m thinking about changing it to a study hall just cuz i don’t wanna have another class.

this year has gone by rather quickly. So much has  happened. but nothing extrodinary…. i’m getting bogged down by the thoughts of college, i don’t want to think about that yet. my mom keeps talking about college constantly, today she was saying how virginia has really nice colleges, and i was like i don’t care, i’m not going there! i actually want to stay kinda close because of the ppl. I mean, obviously my friends, but i couldn’t see myself without my hockey player friends. I mean that’s a decent size of my life. By the time I go to college I’ll be about the same age as 1/2 or so of them. I just don’t know, it’s rediculus, but i mean, my first yr of college, my jake will be playing hockey here, something i have been telling him he should do forever, but if i go far away, i’ll never be able to see him, or see him play.  wow it’s really depressing, i just want to go have fun u know, not be locked in some college w/out any friends…..i dunno it’s just depressing, new yr is going to suck hell…with everyone i know leaving, couldn’t time just stand still for me! why does life have to suck do much?!