1/2/2005

so i’m talking to my old friend and she says  she would fight for being friends with cally again and i say why? and she says she was her best friend ever…ever.  this is what was said after that i’m not enough

NoT EnougH : i choose the route, don’t have a best friend
FrogsPlayVball: but then u have no one….
NoT EnougH : i know, and it’s hard
FrogsPlayVball: yea i know the feeling
NoT EnougH : the saddest thing is no one knows the real me, that’s the saddest thing
FrogsPlayVball: 🙁

now i’m thinking, no one does know the real me. I’m katherine to those i want to impress, kat to my friends, katie to my family.  I say I’m Katherine to hide what’s know about Kat. I am no one to everyone. A fake name, a fake look, i hate pink and white but i’m wearing a pink and white shirt to impress those people that know me as katherine. i wear a hoodie for kat. in truthness, the other girl i was talking to was my only best friend ever, she’s the only one who knows me at all it’s been so long since we talked it’s like she doesn’t know me anymore. I don’t even know if i know me anymore!  i got burned by that one, i suppose i had a good deal to do with it, she was lying to people, hurting them and i couldn’t stand it. 

i hate me

So glad to see u well
Overcome and completely silent now. Without himself you cast your demons out, And not to pull your halo down, Around your neck and tug you off ur cloud
But I’m more than just curious. How you’re planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead; To the dead

Recall the deeds as if
They’re all someone else’s
Atrocious stories. Now you stand reborn before us all
So glad to see you well

And not to pull your halo down. Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I’m more than just curious. How you’re planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead; To the dead

With your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping, Your halo slipping down, Your halo slipping down, Your halo slipping down

Your halo slipping down to choke you now -The Noose -Perfect Circle