5/27/04

i feel pretty shitty….so my dad called and i wasn’t in a good mood, i told him the only time i could go to germany was between june 20 and july 20th, he said that wouldn’t work. i told him i wasn’t going to miss my birthday. my mom said sign up for a summer class, i said it was too late, then i said i was planing on taking organic chem my senior year like the summer between junior and senior, and my moms like well, you might not be in erie….and i said where the hell would i be? i flipped out, my dad wanted my teachers name and number to see if he could get me into the class, i said no, then my dads like well you’re not getting your license….goodbye, and i tryed to respond and he just said good bye. so i hung up and whipped the phone accrossed the room, then my damn mother was like “what was that?!?!” cuz she’s so damn stupid she didnt even figure out  i was mad, its not my problem she got her license after she was married. I was so pissed (still am)      i sent him an email saying “i’m taking organice chem. i’m not going to gemany, don’t plan on talking to me until october” and i was really damn close to saying oh btw when you’re 16, if u can prove you’re stable enough to live on your own, you’re allowed to live without parents, and guess what age i’m turning….. i’m so fucking pissed, i hate him right now, i never want to talk to him again, i mean i never wanted to go to germany, but i kinda looked forward to it, but i didnt want tot stay   a whole month in another counrty….i mean how borning, he wanted me to celebrate my 16th birthday with people  i didnt even know, he wants me to stay with this lady and her kid that i don’t even know…..i’m just so pissed, i don’t want to stay in erie, i’m gonna be so gald once i drive, and my dads gone and my mom gets a damn job i’ll never be home, and i’ll be drinking my saddness away…….i just want to scream, it’s a fucking waste of a summer to spend in another counrty, on an american base, not be allowed to go into the city, what the fuck am i going to do on a amry base in the middle of no where germany for a god damn month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna fucking break something!!!!!!!!