Hrmph…

I’m getting a little frustrated.
At myself, at Adam, at life.
I can’t seem to contain my frustrations anymore.
I’m normally so good at keep control of how I feel and what I show to other people.

I was talking to my friend Jay tonight about certain things that upset me and I just started bawling my eyes out.
Johnny and Bobby wandered through the dining room/kitchen a few times while I was there crying and I’m so ashamed to think that they saw me. I don’t know if they did or not, I’m pretty good at covering it up, but just the thought of them seeing me cry upset me even more.

I’m in an entirely new environment.
I guess I don’t know how to handle myself? It’s so awkward to say that, I’m so… firm. I’m happy with who I am, where I am, etc.
Why am I faltering now?