Love of a sudden

Maybe this is a due anticipation for the 14th. Things seem to be coming out of nowhere this week.

It started when one of my best friends from home called me to talk about smish and smash. The conversation turned to the topic of his girlfriend and he shared a great deal of specifics with me. He spoke of love and how great it felt to be in it. I was quite happy to hear his voice so excited and satisfied.

I haven’t thought about love, the concept of love, or felt love for such a long time now that it took a while to slow down and imagine. I was contacted by someone who wanted to reflect in our love of the past. She had me think about the level of energy we each fed to what was once an inferno of love that burned between us. I guess it doesn’t happen very often that you get to share this kind of reaction with someone. Nice memories surfaced.

Shortly after this reminiscience, I recieved a letter in the mail. It was from a person much younger than I, who I’ve known for just over 3 years now through summer camp. She’s going to work there this summer for the first time and I think I might have let down hope when I told her I wasn’t returning. The letter opened with the date on the top right, and the first paragraph delivered the following hand printed words: "I love you". The rest of the letter was a confuddlement of ideas, flattery and explanation of emotions. I was truly touched and amazed. What caught me was the courage that this girl carried through with, she really wasn’t afraid to say anything, it was quite impressive. I’ve never had someone spill their guts out to me so effectively. What caught me was her lines that mentioned "You only live for so long…". I still haven’t completely thought up anything to write if I were to reply to this letter, where would I start? "I don’t love you.". No, perhaps I’ll mention how brave she is for doing that. Or perhaps I’ll just leave it un-answered.

To end the week, another past summer-love is coming to halifax this afternoon to visit King’s College. I’ll be sure to show her how the city glows, hopefully we won’t get tied into emotional tension or fall helplessly in love ;o)

Anyways, time to off.

that was meeeee 🙂

Nice entry Philly 🙂 As a hopelessly single gent, I refuse to get drawn into a black hole of single-people’s anti-Feb14thness. Too many people I care for have too much love in their lives to prompt any selfish bitterness from me. That being said, I try not to get too sentimental over the whole thing, for fear that my balanced mindstate might give way to pathetic emptiness. Tis a fine line. -Jer

As a random passerbyer I would like to give the unsolicited advice that you should not leave it unanswered. Leaving it unfinished like that will just keep her attached to you when she shouldn’t be (which is unfair to her). I know this from experience. No offence, but ignoring it is almost cowardly.

Don’t leave it unanswered, because that’s just wrong, and incredibly mean. If you were in love with someone, only to have them completely ignore you, how would you feel? You may not feel the same way, but at least have the deceny to reply.

philthy_iron_mac

March 26, 2006

Jer I am proud of you,and appreciate your sentiments towards the 14th.My own personal reaction to the “holiday” is a sense of disappointment. Why do we need an excuse to treat our other half to a day of love and surprises, when we should be performing such acts every day? We shouldn’t feel forced to love each other. However I do realize some people do get busy…

…however it only takes a few minutes to make a card, write an email, hug each other or provide a passionate kiss. I held an anti-valentine’s day with my girlfriend and it went beautifully. And Jer, you aren’t hopelessly single. Remember – you had a girlfriend before me 😀 -PGW