Meh, I’ve Done Better

So yeah, this last week has gone to Hell.  I have been eating too much and making myself puke at least once a day.  I’m so baaaad, but I’m getting myself under control today.  I’m not eating until 4pm, then I won’t eat anything after.  I had to make myself puke at work the other night, and everyone knew because they heard me, but they all just thought I had an upset stomach.  Oh well, I’ll be more careful at work I guess.  Well, no, because I’m going to stop making myself throw up right now.  No more of that.   But yeah, yesterday my parents had a bbq and I ate too much and I puked it all up before I went to work.  Anyway, I’m just rambling.

So, Alex will be home from his trip on the 10th.  I realized today that I’ll get my period on that day, so basically my birthcontrol is counting down the days to his return haha.  I kind of miss him now.  I miss talking to him at least, because we used to see each other everyday.  Oh well.

I have about 3 weeks left in my "lose 15lbs by June 15th" goal.  I need to get crackin’.  I really want to get down to my goal weight before Cape Cod this summer.  That would be amazing.  I’m so tempted to buy TrimSpa to give me an extra edge, but it’s always such a waste because I am sensitive to stimulants.  I always think "well maybe this kind is different," but every diet pill makes me sick.  Grrrr.  I might try that new Alli when it comes out.  As long as I have the money for it.  That kind just blocks the fat, so it won’t make me physically sick.  I’ll just be pooping a lot lol.  An easy trade-off for weight loss I suppose.  I just need to wire my mouth shut, how about that?  Then I’ll stop eating.  Ooookay I’m borderline ramble again.