Last night, Today, and Liposuction

He imed me around 10:30 and said he didn’t want to go out.  I wish I had saved the conversation.  He told me I was being ridiculous because he had homework to do and he didn’t want to drink.  The reason I was angry is because I do so much for him, and ONE NIGHT he couldn’t type a measely 3page paper quick and go out with me.

You see, his roommate was having a girl over last night and she was supposedly bringing one of her sisters, who Alex thinks is hot.  I know how he is.  He didn’t do any work.  I’m sure he hung out with them and drank.  I guess I was also jealous because I don’t want him hanging out with some girl that I don’t know.  I don’t even know what she looks like, so I can’t judge the competition.  I’d like to think there is no competition because him and I are so close, but I never know with him.

I happened to check his status around 12:30, and he had been idle for 2hrs.  Can’t type a paper without your computer.  Just goes to show that I have every right to be suspicious of him.

He told me to call him today.  I said no, you call me.  He said okay, I will.  I told him I wasn’t going out of my way for him anymore since I get nothing in return.  He didn’t say anything to me after that.

He always makes me feel like I’m such a bitch.  I have a right to feel the way I do.  Fuck.

On a very happy note, I weighed myself this morning and I have lost 2lbs.  Yaaaaay me.

It was weird, this morning when I woke up, in my half sleepy state, I could not remember what day it was or what time I had to wake up.  For a second I thought it was Saturday and I didn’t have to get up.  Luckily, I remembered it was Thursday and I have class at 12:30.  I hate when that happens.  Makes me feel like I’m losing my mind.

I haven’t made myself puke in almost a week!  Believe me, I’ve thought about it.  At one point, I was in the bathroom with my head in the toilet and my finger down my throat, but I stopped myself.  I want to be healthy.  I’m going to lose weight the right way this time.

I have been surfing different plastic surgery websites to see the before and after pictures.  I’ve really been thinking about liposuction a lot lately.  It’s scary to think of how much pain I would be in, but it looks so worth it.  I would want it on my stomach, my back, and my arms.  Maybe a boob job too.  I doubt I’ll ever get any of this stuff done, unless I get an incredible job after school, but it’s fun to think about.