Forgot myself (nojomo 5 jus past midnight :-( )

I have been wrapped up in Sara since Dani dropped me off last night and it has been amazing. We have talked alot, and I am doing my best to try and share with her how I am feel. My communication skills, and voicing my emotions are hard. I have had this urge to write a poem, or multiple ones, but I have yet to have the ‘alone’ time to do so. I have mind written so many and can’t wait to put them down on paper.

Nothing much on my mind at this moment but another movie and just feeling her. The past few days taking the time to except my feelings, and having the time to think and get a few things straight in my head, I have realized I need to figure me out and put me on the right track. Sara and mine relationship is stronger then either of us see, and I know we’ll make it through this some way or another. I just hope she begins to look at it as something positive and not negative. I hope she realizes me have to move out is not what has put the notion in my head to get up and do something, or has caused me to push my self harder. My breaking down and hour walk in the rain, with nothing but my own thoughts to a company me, gave me the time and space to make sense to myself, that I had lost myself. I have allowed my self to be consumed in making everyone believe I was ok, when I wasn’t that I was forgetting to do the things that made me happy. I got my self so worried in how everyone else was doing if they were alright to remember to take of my needs and wants, dreams and wishes. I let my self get so far distracted, by time I realized I was broken, beaten and battered, it just felt worse, beating myself to a point were i lost all motivation to life, to love, to dream. A talk with my self, and a slap in the face from a few REAL friends, I realized it times for me to take care of myself, put me back in my place of Aces, so I can do everything else it is I want to do.

 

 

Thinking of Sara:

Celebration Tank

[Tank]
Now is a celebration
oh girl lets celebrate
yeah it’s a celebration
oh girl lets celebrate
baby tonight I’m yours
baby come on in and wrap your gift
know you can find it in stores
some tailormade for you

[Chorus]
it’s oooh, oooooooh
you dont wanna miss this it feels like it’s Christmas
like ohh, ohhhhhhhhh
yeah its a holiday but I’m open for business
we got a bottle of that Rose
baby we gon celebrate
make it feel like its your brithday
baby girl lets celebrate
party after party I cant wait to celebrate
all up on your body
baby your my sensei
baby 4th of July
right between your thighs it’s like fireworks
just light up the sky
don’t need no reservation your my invitation
to this love making
this a celebration

when you last close the door
lets teach you this sex education
since you passed every course
hats off to your graduation
it’s like oooh, ooooooooh

[Chorus]

[Drake]
How’d I do how’d I do, baby tell me how you feel
They say real girls ain’t never perfect, perfect girls ain’t real
I’d I agree, but I guess we’ll just wait and see
Cause I swear you act like perfect is the only way to be
Nothing matters ‘cept for you, don’t let no one out here blind you
Don’t remember why you love me, please allow me to remind you
And I know you left me once, but I came right back to find you
Even though I like being in your past you got a bright future behind you
Oh, damn, oh
Girl I must admit I look amazing next to you
Girl you crazy, sexy, cool and you stayed obsessed to school
But thats good, cause you know that them grades impress me too
And my free days are just for you, but I don’t get many
Its like every time we spend time, it feels like the first time
Cause we never spend enough time, you catch me at the worst time
It ain’t like your not worth time, just I don’t control it
But tonight I made it happen just to celebrate the moment
Give it up one time

[Chorus]
[End]

 

 

Just the way you are Bruno mars

 

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She’s so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are