Birthday Night- Bizzy bone concert

Today is friday, which makes it one day past my birthday, and one more day( half a day now) until…..THE BIZZY BONE CONCERT!

Bizzy bone concert tomorrow, my first concert, one of my idols, what more could i ask for. Sara has surprised me in so many ways. I havent had someone do the things she has for me. It’s the little things that count…just dont forget to look at the big picture as well..She helps me do that. She been buggin me to make a plan, and I have kinda been drawing that up. Slowly but it’s getting there, and becoming more and more realistic by the day.

So my birthday went GREAT! No where near as many poeple showed ass I had invited or that told me they were going to. I assumed as much because poeple are fuck, liars, back stabbers, and i nthe presence of others…where a mask and act as another. I really honestly didnt expect much from half of em. I invited alot of poeple just not to be rude. Some poeple that will remain nameless really really showed there true colors, but dont forget…what u do and how you act, along with what u say..is only a reflection of your self…NOT me, I’m still the king, untouched, untamed, and fucking fresh. You tried to make me look bad, but you only mad a fool of your self on and off stage..so…Sorry for your fucking luck you god damn loser. Sorry..I cant get into to much detail right now because of people having links to this and I’m not sure who talks to who and honestly I dont want someone to start shit with me and they get there asses handed to em, or worse shot, because its come down to some of the nigga’s i roll with aint fucking around with these back stabbin no good faggots. Get it? got it? good!

Anywho, who all showed up was, Tov, Sam, My sister, James, Ricky, Crystal(who shulda got smacked), Sara of course. Amy came thru with adam bc he wanted to go out but Krys was acting liek douche so she had Adam come tell me she said happy birthday and what not. (which is bullshit bc he thinks somethings going on with me nd amy bc we talked once while they were together on her facebok where he can see it, but still all bad bc im her ex….LET ME PUT IT THIS WAY…NO MATTER WHO U ARE..WHO YOUR WITH OR WHAT YOUR DOING…IF I WANTED YO BITCH I WOULD HAVE YO BITCH.) Onward to more important things.

( I need deorderant)

I think I have made my decision on where I’m going to stay, and live, and about the diner. I really am not going to write about it because I havent completely made up my mind yet Still trying to sort out whats going to be best for me in the long run. With the small details that get intertwind i cant just do either. My personally well being, health, sanity, and happiness all depend on it. Starting T at my mothes house could be very damaging to me, concidering they dnt always use the correct pronouns nd name except for a.j. It jsut sucks because they’ll be good at it for a few weeks..like its like I never even fucking told them, or they dnt even fucking care, and with the rapid dysphoria I’m having I need to start soon. So start at my moms nd kill everyone, or myself, or wait a little longer and do it in a safe enviroment. I need one that is stable so that i can manage and stablize my emotions better as these changes happen. So its hard either way. I have faith that what ever is suppose to happen will the way it suppose to. ( Maybe going through the transition there will help them understand and *get used* to it. idk…this hurts my head thinking about it…

I have dishes, laundry, garbage, and a few other things to do before sara’s mom gets home. So later

–D.j