This just might hurt a little

The wake was yesterday, funeral oday…they uncovered my aunt grave…talk about having to hold ur breath not to burst into tears.

Saw famly from out of town…and aunt peggy took down my email adress.

My said something to me about something and it could make these 3 days the most devastating weekend of my life. I cant exactly processit, or even fucking begin to think if its true..it ould ruin everythin…every plan ive made every dreams Ive told my self id make come true..idk im just scared this ones gunna hurt. Just tell me it isnt true…God please tell me it isnt true..I’m not sure it be able to "maintain" "myself"…or the "others"…

I think imma go bck to bed i feel like im going to burst into tears….nd maybe ill find away to dream up the money for my doc apt nd horemones… its gunna b my bday gift to myself…not sure how yet…but damn it i cnt wait ne more…

To much going on to write i feel like im going to explode…

D.j